Sheriff it must have been tough to be this candid. There is nothing to be ashamed of with failing. You at least got up to try! I hope you take 3 months off and do nothing. Taking a break can be refreshing way to figure out things and then like the Trojans of old, get up, jump back in, and FIGHT ON! You have a wealth of experience and learning that will guide you in your next adventure! Wishing you the very best!